Wednesday, December 12, 2012

What a difference a year makes....

I never imagined a year ago when Kevin and I decided to try having kids again that I would be pregnant and expecting in less than 5 weeks.

I remember last December like it was yesterday. We went and seen a fertility doctor for the first time and she was open and honest with us. I of course was expecting things to happen very quickly and was hoping to be pregnant in 1 month but just like everything else it took longer than that. After 6 mths of trying and 1 miscarriage it finally took.

Well fast forward to a year later. I will be 35 weeks tomorrow and have 5 weeks to go...or less :)

Everything is going great. Except I started coming down with something so I am not feeling that good. And my sleep is being interrupted even more. It stinks.

There's less than 2 weeks until Christmas and I am 95% done. I just need to get 1 more thing for Kevin and my my dad and I'm all done. And then it's wrapping time, which used to be my favorite but now it's hard for me to sit on the floor without getting assistance back up.

I can't wait to be able to share these stories with my little girl when she gets older and can understand them. I really can't wait to see how different our lives are going to be when she comes into our world. I am starting to get a little anxious and nervous and I know as the weeks count down I will start to get more and more nervous. I have my hospital bag packed and car seat ready to go! Now we just sit and wait for our precious angel to come :)

Thursday, November 29, 2012

32/33 Weeks....

I have yet to decide what to name this post. I guess I'll think about that when I'm done writing.

There has been a lot going on lately and I know there will be a lot going on within the next month or so.

First off today I am officially 33 weeks.
Last Wednesday we took off for 4 days up north. Hubby went hunting with my dad while I stayed and relaxed in the hotel. My step mom was there as well and we went out to breakfast the first morning and went back to our rooms and vegged out. Thanksgiving we ate dinner at the hotel, we had their buffet. Let me tell you this was our first thanksgiving without either families and I was kinda homesick. But the dinner wasn't bad at all. The only thing I didn't have was pumpkin pie...sad I know! But now that I have gestation diabetes I have to watch my sugar intake and pumpkin pie wouldn't have been good. With this gestational diabetes it's hard to watch what I eat and have to check my sugar levels 2 hours after I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. Oh and when I wake up in the morning. I don't wish this on anyone, so people you need to watch what you eat during your pregnancy. I wish I would have listened to my hubby when I first got pregnant but I indulged and ate everything. Oh well I'm learning now. I went to the doctor 2 days ago and my sugar is out of control, he said if I don't get it under control he's putting me on insulin. And I don't want that. So watching my sugar for 2 days now and it's all within the limits it should be, so I'm proud of myself and need to keep it up. I have less than 7 weeks of this pregnancy and don't want to be on insulin for the rest of it.

I put the bassinet and bouncer together last night while hubby was painting some things for the nursery. It's almost complete and I can't wait to show it off. I am so excited and it's making me more excited for baby to come. I just need a few more items before baby gets here and put the swing together and I'll be all set. I need to pack our bags for the hospital incase she shows up early and I'm prepared. And need to get car seat ready to put in car. I like to be prepared but sometimes I procrastinate, so we'll see how it goes :)

32 weeks...

32 weeks...8 weeks to go!

Saturday, November 17, 2012

31 Weeks

I am 9 weeks away from delivering this beautiful baby girl! I'm still in complete shock this is finally happening to us! And I've made it this far :)
I thank God everyday for this especially when she wiggles around in my belly and I can feel it and watch my belly move all around. It's amazing! We are so close to being done with the nursery I can't wait to show it off.
It is now hunting season and daddy is preparing to go hunting and we are going with him. It will be my last mini vacation and time off before you arrive! And this will be my first year missing Thanksgiving. This year I have so many things to be thankful for :)
Until next time everyone have a safe and happy Thanksgiving!

Friday, October 26, 2012

28 weeks....

Helloooooo 3rd trimester!
I have never imagined that I would be here
Went to my check up today and everything looks good
Because of my gestational diabetes I now have to go and see him for a non stress test once a week, then see my doctor every 2 weeks and have an ultrasound every 3 weeks. Whew!
This is going to get crazy as I have to go to another office for my ultrasound so hopefully I don't get confused.
I am officially in my last week of school!!! Yippee! I will then be on hiatus from school until spring semester which will be in April. I will need this break!
I hope to get the dresser in the nursery this weekend so I can start washing clothes and putting them away.
My baby shower is next week so after that I will be able to put everything in it's right place :)

Monday, October 22, 2012

27 weeks...

I wish I kept up on weekly belly pictures like I do my blog posts.
But decided to only do monthly for the rest of my pregnancy.
Well a lot has happened over the past week.
I failed both my sugar tests and now have gestational diabetes. I have to poke my finger and check my sugar levels everyday now. I get to attend a nutritionist class tmrw to help me what I can eat and can't eat.
I quit drinking pop which is huge for me. I am limiting my sweets intake which is again huge for me. As this whole pregnancy that's what I've been craving. And I know I need to watch my carbs. I'll learn more tmrw.
We got new windows this weekend and they look great. Can't wait for spring/summer to open my windows and actually get a breeze in my house. I would never get anything before.
Now off to dr to check this growth on baby!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

26 weeks...

Been a good week.
Not much going on.
I have 2 weeks left of school and can't wait :)
Nursery is almost done :)
New windows being installed this wknd :)
I have a dear friends baby shower on Sunday :) now that I'm pregnant I love going to baby showers but before I hated them. I used to sit there and cry in my head telling myself this should be me and why won't this happen to me. But now I talk to people who are going through the same thing I went through and I just tell them exactly how I felt and lots and lots of patience! I've been there, done that. I know how you feel. I hate seeing people struggling to get pregnant who deserve kids. My heart goes out to them!
I have my 3 hour sugar test at the hospital tmrw. Praying I don't have gestational diabetes.
2 dr appts next week-1 to check growth on baby and the other with my ob to go over everything and get my rh negative shot. Yay me!

Ooh don't know if I told you this but last week was cooking dinner and went
to empty a pot of noodles and I'm sure you know what's coming next....why yes I spilled a pot of boiling water on my foot and got 2nd degree burns. It hurt so bad I instantly grabbed an ice pack and set it on my foot. I yelled for Kevin to come finish dinner so I could ice my foot. It blistered pretty good but now there's a round mark on my foot that I'm sure will leave a battle scar :(

Tomorrow I'm 27 weeks and almost 7 mths :) 2 1/2 mths and my baby girl will be here :)

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

I am...

So happy that I decided to keep up with this blog throughout my journey. It's a nice way to put down my feelings and what's going on with our lives.

On a bad note I burned my foot last night with boiling hot water, got 2nd degree burns. It hurt of course and I don't like pain so it was difficult. I just put an ice pack on it and wrapped it up with Neosporin.

On a good note, daddy felt you kick for the first time this morning and he was happy to feel you. He told me no wonder I don't get any sleep. I said ya because your kicking me all night :) plus I have hip pain and back pain but I say it's just getting me ready for when your here.

Nursery is almost complete. I can't wait :)

Mommy got her sugar test back and she failed so I now have to go back for the 3 hour test instead of the 1 hour. So fun...not! Just hoping and praying my sugar is good so I don't have to be put on insulin. So please say a prayer for me!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

25 weeks and counting...

Baby has been doing somersaults in there the past few days. Don't know what she's doing but it feels so weird.

Well the nursery is in full swing thanks to my fabulous hubby. He's been working around the clock just to get everything ready. It's starting to look awesome! I can't wait to show it off! And we also decided on a name...Savannah Grace!

Went for my sugar test (glucose) last week, still waiting on results...don't know why it's taking so long!

My family has also been planning the shower, been trying to stay out of it so its a surprise but over controlling me wants to know what's going on every step of the way :)

I go back to the doctors in 2 weeks so I will know more then. Until then have a great week :)

Monday, October 1, 2012

24 week picture...

24 weeks...

I'm officially 6 mths :)
Time has flown by and can't wait to meet my little princess
I officially have felt her kick for the first time yesterday and actually saw my belly move from it
It was one of the best feelings for me and I'm sure there are many more to come :)
Not much going on this week
2nd week of school...blah
I go to doctor's on Wednesday for my sugar test...blah
We are waiting for our new windows to be installed so daddy can paint the nursery, I'm so excited
We went this weekend and got the dresser...thank you grandma Young!
And your bassinet.
We have your crib already so we are on our way to getting your room ready.
I wanted it ready by the shower which is in a month so all I have to do is misc things.
Ahhhh so many exciting things happening around the Young household

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Update...

Went to dr yesterday and even the high risk specialist has no idea what it is. Grrrr...so she wants to see me back in a month so she can look at it again.

So I was doing some google research this morning and of course I come across cancer, tumor and all negative things which is making it worse I know but I can't help it. I can't wait until I deliver this baby to find out what it is even though I know I'm going to have to :( on a positive note during the ultrasound I saw on the monitor the baby kick but the best part was I could feel her too. Now I know what her kicks feel like and I knew I felt something but wasn't sure what it was. What an awesome feeling :) so I was trying to get her to kick all night last night!

Have a good week!

Monday, September 24, 2012

Today's a big day...

Dear baby girl,
Today's a big day for us to find out what this little mass is on you. We're hoping and praying its nothing but we want to be sure.

I have come up with 3 names that I've gone over with daddy just waiting on him to make the final choice. We went and registered for you this weekend and also picked out paint for your room. I am so excited to start getting everything going for you. I want to come up with a room for you that can transition into a toddler and maybe a child's room, we'll see! I hope your all nice and snug in there. We can't wait to meet you in 4 mths :)

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Need Prayers....

Well we found out today we are having a girl :)
We are so excited and can't wait to meet her
Now we get to decide on paint color and all the wonderful things what to do with the nursery

On the unfortunate side they noticed last month this little bubble in the ultrasound but couldn't tell what it was
well today the ultrasound tech grabbed the doctor and the doctor said it's getting bigger but he's not sure what it is
So he referred me to a high risk doctor at the hospital and I have an appt next Monday.
I'm trying not to worry but how can you not
I need to be strong and stay positive for my little girl
It may be nothing but at the same time it may be something
I am asking for everyone to please keep me and the baby in your prayers that this "bubble" or a mass he is calling it is really nothing
Doctor said worse case scenario he can have it surgically removed when the baby is born
Prayers is all I'm asking for
Please and thank you

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Week 22 and babymoon vacation...

This was our first week back from our vacation and let me say we had the best time. I thought I had pictures but for some reason they didn't save their on my camera. I will post later.
We drove down to Tennessee which took about 9 hours. We were there for 5 days and our plans were to stay in our cabin and not do anything but we were busy every day. The first full day we were there we decided to do a driving tour through the Smoky Mountains and that was so awesome. To see God's creations was just breathtaking. The rest of the time we ate, shopped and relaxed.

I have been feeling very good so far this pregnancy, no complaints. My allergies did act up in the middle of our vacation and I was miserable for about a week and just a few days ago my throat started hurting and now I can't stop coughing. So I just went to the store and bought some pregnancy approved cough syrup and cough drops. I hope I can feel better soon.

We go and find out Wednesday what this little peanut inside of me is. I hope we can find out. But I can tell you this, this baby is definitely a Young baby and being very stubborn.

We started planning the shower and it's coming up very quickly. We can't go register until we find out what the baby is so once we find out Wednesday we have to go register than send the invites out. Baby will be here in less than 3 1/2 mths...OMG! I've been going to mom 2 mom sales and even though I don't know what I'm having I still have an idea so I've been buying clothes. I know shame on me but oh well :)

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

19 Weeks....

So I went to the dr last week to find out what you are but guess what...the ultrasound tech couldn't tell! AAAHHHHHH! Oh well! So when we go back next month for our regular check up we'll check again. At first she said girl but then she said boy then she said she couldn't tell. Her first instinct was girl so I am secretly hoping it's a girl. But as long as you are healthy I will be happy! Your heartbeat was 153 which was awesome. You were moving and shaking in front of all of us. You are 10 oz. I wanted to go register for the baby shower but since we don't know what you are, we decided to wait. You are making me very hungry all the time, so I'm trying to eat good but all I'm craving are sweets. So I try to eat them in moderation.

Our neighbor told me the other day I was having a girl. She said because I'm carrying high and I got big really quick. So then she made me homemade donuts, which were outstanding. I'll have to get the recipe. They are very sweet to your daddy and I. It's nice to have good neighbors. The neighbors on the other side are keeping mommy up at night with their dog. They chain it up at night and leave it outside all night long and sits there and whines and cries all night. We've tried everything to get them to keep the dog in the house but they just won't listen. They better hope by the time you come they get this taken care of.

Daddy and I leave for vacation on Labor Day September 3 and we are excited to have one last little vacation before you get here. We rented a cabin in the Smoky Mountains. I can't wait for you to have your first vacation with us :) Next year the family is already thinking about going to Myrtle Beach to see your aunt and uncle who will be home from Poland. You will be 6 mths old by then, but we'll worry about that next year.

Have a great week and safe Labor Day!

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Dearest Baby Y...

Dear baby, I just wanted to tell you that you make mommy and daddy so happy. We are patiently awaiting your arrival, even though it's not for another 4 1/2 mths. We are excited for next week to find out if your a boy or girl so we can stop calling you it :) I've had several people tell me they are thinking your a boy so I guess we'll have to wait and see. We've started planning the baby shower and I'm really excited. I can't wait for everyone to show you their love. I know the family is dying to meet you. You've been a long time coming to us and we couldn't be happier. I hope your warm and snuggly in my belly, I have a feeling you are as you haven't stopped moving. This is also the week you are able to hear voices so I talk to you a lot. I try to make sure no negative people around me as I don't want you to hear any of that. We haven't met you and already love you to pieces... Love your mom and dad

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

18 Weeks...almost halfway!

I can't believe I'm 18 weeks already. Just feels like yesterday that I found out I was pregnant.
This week baby is the size of a sweet potato. Measuring 5.6 inches and 6.7 oz.
I can't feel baby moving quite yet but definitely feeling flutters. I'm feeling those a lot more now than last week. Actually feeling them at this exact moment and it's the best feeling. Makes me smile. Everytime I feel something I stop what I'm doing and put my hand on my belly and enjoy the moment.
And I'm excited that a week from today I get to find out what baby Young is. And of course I will announce it to the world :) well once I tell my family first!

Still really no cravings, which is good. I'm gaining more weight which is good for baby but bad for me.
I need to start exercising but been so tired lately it's hard. Plus I'm back in school starting September so I won't have time for anything but work and homework.

We leave for vacation in 3 weeks and I can't wait. I really need a vacation. Can't wait for rest and relaxation :)

Friday, August 3, 2012

16 Weeks...

Wow, where to begin.
I have never imagined to be at this place where I am now.
I am now almost 17 weeks pregnant and getting bigger by the day.
I actually look pregnant and not fat.
When I finally feel comfortable to post belly pics I will but as of right now I will wait.
We find out in 3 weeks what we are having and oh so excited.
And a month from today we leave for vacation. Our last vacation before baby comes.
We are spending 5 days in a chalet in the Smoky Mountains in Tennessee. And another thing we are oh so excited and grateful for.
We are slowly planning the baby shower and with the holidays in November and December we are planning on having it early November.

Our fridge died last week and it's only 2 years old. So I tried calling every repairman possible and they were booked for days and I couldn't go that long without a fridge so we had no choice but to go out and buy a new one.

A week ago today I was leaving work and heard sirens and saw cops driving eastbound on the street so I waited for them to pass so I could go westbound. As I was looking in my rearview mirror I noticed the cop doing a u-turn in the middle of the street and coming my way. I didn't think anything of it until I got to the intersection and noticed cops everywhere and a car speeding past me so fast I knew what was about to happen. North and Southbound traffic had the green light and of course the light that the speeding car was going towards was red, you know what happens next. The car slammed into 2 cars and they both went spinning out of control. The one car had a mother and small baby inside of it and my heart dropped. I instantly started crying and prayed for everyone to be safe. The mother grabbed the baby out of the car seat right away and stepped away from the car. You could see that she was crying and just holding the baby. The cop ran over to her and grabbed her and placed her in the car that was not more than 5 feet from my car, so I rolled down the window and asked if I could call someone for her and the cop told me they would take care of it. I couldn't see the other car as it was on the other side of the street and to many cop cars and ambulances in the way. I watched in horror as these events were going on but yet the cops were still driving up and down the street and I was realized the getaway car took off. They finally caught the 3 men they were looking for. Supposedly they robbed a gas station not more than a mile from my work and had 2 handguns and 2 tasers. I was so shooken up and waiting in traffic and thankfully my nerves calmed down. I can't believe what I just witnessed. It seemed like a scene out of "Cops" on tv but yet it was right in front of me. I couldn't wait to get home and hug the ones I loved. I had nightmares that night and thankfully it was only for one night. I just hope everyone is wearing their seatbelts because you never know when someone is going to come at you like that and slam into your car.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

14 Weeks

I am now 14 weeks pregnant and it's finally starting to hit me that I am
My belly is getting harder and starting to form that round shape
There are people I know that are close to me in pregnancy and some are a few behind me and they already have that nice belly shape and I'm so jealous of them.
I wasn't perfectly skinny before pregnancy so with being a little heavier my belly isn't perfect so it's taking a little bit longer to form but that's ok. As long as you are healthy baby :)
I went last week for an ultrasound for them to see if you have down syndrome but you were moving so much they couldn't see anything
It was so fun watching you move around in my belly and I couldn't feel a thing
I wish daddy was there with me but he had to work so I told him next time he can see you dancing around
We even got to watch you suck on your thumb and your other hand was behind your head, it was the funniest thing but so awesome to watch you
I even have ultrasound pictures to prove it
My next appt isn't until August 22nd and at that time we get to find out what you are
Mommy and daddy are so excited to find out
We can't wait to go shopping and buy you everything the store has :)
I'm starting to crave things but not a lot
Not much has really happened since last week
We just can't wait for you to come into this world :)

Monday, June 25, 2012

11 Weeks...

Not sure where I left off last time and I'm to lazy to go back and check so I'll start from where I can remember.
I had an ultrasound 2 weeks ago to check the baby and hear the heartbeat again and it was fantastic.
The baby is starting to look like an actual baby :)
We are starting to wonder if your a boy or girl because mommy is obsessed with old wives tales and she hasn't had morning sickness yet and people keep saying your a boy but honestly I would be happy with either one. As long as you are a healthy baby.
Mommy has been trying to watch what she eats but she is craving sweets, pizza hut breadsticks and especially national coney island hani's...she can't get enough.
Daddy talks to you every single night and rubs my belly and it's the sweetest thing. He doesn't let mommy carry anything heavy and always watches out for her.
I have been crying at the littlest thing and it's so hard.
My lower back has been hurting the last few days pretty bad on and off.
It's fireworks season with 4th of July right around the corner and daddy has been going crazy lighting off fireworks, he's a little bit of a pyro ;) so were hoping you'll like fireworks!
We can't wait to find out what you are so we can start shopping and start getting the nursery together.
I am so excited to find out and people keep telling me I'm crazy and I should wait but I just keep telling them I want to shop and buy the appropriate things for you.
Funny story when your auntie Jessie had baby Stefan (your cousin) they kept telling her she was having a girl. She had a girl baby shower and bought all girly things, well surprise he came out a boy! Everyone was in shock. I watched your auntie Jessie give birth and I thought that was the most traumizing experience I have ever seen and couldn't imagine doing it myself. But I'm sure when I'm there in the hospital bed I will change my mind.
Also my due date is right around your cousin's Stefan birthday so were hoping you come a little bit earlier than expected so you don't share the same birthday. It's not fair to either one of you. And Christmas is 3 weeks earlier so we don't want you to get jipped for that. So sorry lil baby.

Well I have 2 weeks and I will be out of my first trimester.
I can't complain about anything as I have felt great thus far.
Everyone is excited about meeting you and can't wait for you.
You are one of the last babies in both families unless auntie Jessie decides to have more, haha!
You are going to be the 8th grandchild on daddy's side and the 4th on mommy's side. So your going to be one spoiled baby :)

Thursday, June 14, 2012

9 almost 10 weeks...

Today I am 9 weeks 6 days and still in complete shock!
My clothes are getting a little to tight on me so I had to cave in and start buying maternity clothes.
I didn't want to buy them this early but I had no choice.
I tried wearing a belly band but it wasn't cutting it.
I've had no morning sickness...knock on wood! It's still early.
I've only had some nausea, really bad dizzyness, some headaches and that's about it.
I've been keeping a journal at home and documenting everything as I go along because I'm not share if I will be able to do this again. I've also been trying to do weekly belly shots but with all the people in my house I feel uncomfortable so I've been slacking. I need to stick with this as I bought a template to make my own weekly book up until I give birth.
I went for an ultrasound about 3 weeks ago and go to listen to the heartbeat for the first time and it was amazing. I cried listening to it. I go back tomorrow for another one and this time Kevin gets to come with me so that will be nice. Since he wasn't at the first appt with me I recorded it but listening to it in person is so much different than listening to a recording. Dr said I'm measuring well and actually more than what they thought so with how much the baby has grown my due date is now Jan 12 but the dr said it didn't matter so their keeping it at Jan 17.
I've been thinking and I know closer to the date I'll know more information but I hope to start taking off work starting Jan 1st and taking at least 12 weeks off. But depending on if I go into labor early or not. Which by the way scares the crap out of me.
I watched my sister give birth and that was so traumatizing not sure if I'll be able to do it. Lol.
I will update again in about a week until then have a great weekend everyone!

Monday, May 28, 2012

Week 7

Today I am officially 7 weeks. I went to the dr last Friday and everything went great. They don't have an ultrasound machine at this office so I have to go to another office next Friday, I'm so excited. But here's a little tidbit on my lil peanut or should I say blueberry :)


The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.

Week 6

This was meant for last week:

6 weeks: Baby is the size of a lentil Your baby is as long as a lentil (about 1/4 inch). This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His or her emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and the arms and legs by protruding buds. Your baby's heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute – almost twice as fast as yours – and blood is beginning to course through his or her body. The intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to the lungs has appeared. The pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of your baby's brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

It's finally happening....

I wrote this a few days ago and was worried about saying something but screw it. So here goes: I'm officially pregnant!

I was hesitant to say anything but heck my whole family knows now so why not document this and share this with the world.

Today I am officially 6 weeks :) I went last week to say goodbye to my RE fertility specialist and they did an ultrasound and my little peanut looks so cute. Even though it was the size of a sesame seed haha.

I am so excited and happy and beside myself.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Drum Roll please...

These last two weeks have been crazy. I didn't realize I haven't posted since my IUI. School has been crazy insane, I'm in my last week of online classes and then this week I start my next 6 weeks of classes...can't wait!

Work has also been extremely crazy and this past week we went down to Motor City Casino for the night and had 2 days worth of meetings. The first day we had a meeting for a few hours then they treated us to a baseball game which was fun. The weather has been weird and of course while were at the game it was in the 90's and hot and humid.

I of course have been having symptoms and keep wandering what's going on. and since I was pregnant last month I keep comparing myself to last month. I know I shouldn't but that's how our brains work I guess. I have been cramping on my right side near my ovary, really tired and taking naps which is rare for me. I have been getting up and peeing throughout the night which I never do. I have been so bloated I look 6 mths pregnant and it hurts. My pants barely fit because I'm so bloated. I've been getting headaches, dizzy and eating so much food it's disgusting. So I kind of had a feeling something was up. Yesterday, Cinco de mayo I celebrated my 11th wedding anniversary and of course had a doctor's appt for my pregnancy test. I told the nurse don't call me unless it's good news haha. We started the day off by going to breakfast, we went for a motorcycle ride and ended the night with dinner at our favorite restaurant Maggiano's. It's italian and we go every year on our anniversary, it's a tradition now. But before we went to breakfast I got the call. I was very apprehensive to answer it but wanted to know what was going on. To be continued.....

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Everything went...

Great yesterday.
They did an ultrasound before my IUI and I had 4 follicles at 20, 18, 15 and 13. Whew! The nurse doing my ultrasound asked if I signed a multiples agreement haha. Pretty much I had to sign something stating I am ok if I get pregnant with multiples and won't terminate the pregnancy.

So we inserted 5 million sperm :) compared to the 3 million last month. And last month I only had 1 follicle and still managed to get pregnant. So I'm really excited to see what this month holds...and kind of nervous.

So I'm taking it easy. Yesterday I came home after my appt and layed on the couch and watched tv all day. It felt great.

So please say a few prayers for me that this month will work!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

3rd IUI and 5th month on clomid...

So I started my 5th month of clomid but 2nd month on 100mg. I took that cd 3-7 and starting cd 8 I started doing my gonal-f injections. I went in on cd 8 for an ultrasound and they said I had 4 follicles. 11, 10, 10 and 9.  So I went in for my cd10 ultrasound and my follicles were now 18, 16, 15 and 13 maybe. I never got the exact  numbers so not positive. After my appt yesterday (Saturday) I got the call that I can do my ovidrel trigger shot and have my IUI on Monday. I was in shock that it was happening so soon. I was only cd10 and then I would have my IUI on cd12. I was freaking out that it was to early. But I did my trigger shot last night at midnight because we had bowling. I took an ovulation kit and it tested positive that I was ovulating so I felt a little better. I had to re-arrange my days at work and take Monday and Tuesday off-I'm giving myself an extra day to relax so I'm not rushing around. So praying that last month with the chemical pregnancy that this month the little bean actually sticks around :) I am asking if everyone can please pray for me! Thank you!

Monday, April 16, 2012

March for Babies Walk....

I am asking for everyone's help please. I am walking in the March for Babies walk on April 29th and I'm not anywhere near my goal. I am trying to raise $100 but would love if I could get more than that. If you can please donate as much as you can to help premature babies.

Here is the link to my page:
http://www.marchforbabies.org/team/t1719768

Thank you all so much!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

You get your miracle then....

BAM it gets taken away.

I knew something was either wrong or going great these last few weeks. I had my IUI on March 26th. 2 days after my IUI I started cramping in my abdomen and getting pressure. I never had this with my first one so I knew something wasn't right. I went in for my beta blood test on Saturday April 7th and then went about my day. Like any other time I was waiting on that phone call and expecting to hear "sorry your test was negative". But I got that phone call earlier than I ever have before and the lady on the other line said "it was positive". I asked her to repeat herself. I have never heard a positive before. But let me take you back to first thing that morning. I have an obsession with peeing on a stick and I peed on one earlier that day and it was negative so that was kind of weird that she told me it was positive. Then hear comes the bad news. She said my beta number was low so they wanted me to come back on Monday for another beta. She said my number was 10. Between 0 and 5 is negative, between 5 and 10 is maybe, maybe not pregnant and anything over 25 is definitely pregnant. So I took it easy over the weekend and went back on Monday. This time my number only jumped to 11. I just had a gut feeling something wasn't right but yet I was still getting symptoms. Stomach was cramping, getting pressure in lower belly and had a pulling sensation next to belly button. So I went again on Wednesday and waited, waited, waited for that phone call. I had high hopes and was expecting to hear my number skyrocketed. But all good things must come to an end...my number dropped to 5.7....ugh, are you kidding me? They want me to come back on Saturday as the doctor wants it under 5 to make sure it's definitely negative but I told myself why go back to hear that dreaded "it's negative" again. Then I wake up this morning and guess what, my period started! Go figure!

Thankfully I have an appt at my doctor's office today to go over my injection training since this month I will be giving myself injections along with all the other medication I have to take. I will now be on clomid 100mg cd 3-7, gonal f cd 8-12 then give myself ovidrel trigger shot 36 hours before IUI then we do IUI.

I told Kevin at least we know we can pregnant but something happened and it just didn't take. In technical terms they call this a chemical pregnancy, which is a step below a miscarry. We just both feel like God gave us what we wanted then at the last minute took it away from us. He knows how bad we want this. I am feeling pretty positive about this next cycle though. If it worked last month I know it will work this month and it will stick around.

So here's to a new month of meds and ultrasounds and maxing out our credit cards to pay for everything!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Life is hectic...

Life has been hectic around the Young household lately.
My dad moved in last September for details we won't get into.
A buddy of his went through a terrible accident with his wife and his wife passed away so ever since then he's been working on and off and hasn't had a decent place to stay. Usually he sleeps in his van or if he has money he gets a hotel room for the night. After a few times meeting him and not knowing all of this Kevin and I decided he can move in with us and we can provide a roof over his head and food in his belly until he gets back on his feet. He's a contractor so he's been doing stuff around the house for us which has been awesome. He's fixed some outlets for us, he added a 2nd bedroom in our basement and we painted the whole basement so he helped out with that. I come home from work to a clean house, so that part is good.
Recently my sister her lease ended on her house and they had nowhere to go so just last weekend my sister, her boyfriend and 3 yr old nephew moved in with us...whew!
Have you caught on yet? I feel like my life is a soap opera.
And during the week my husband's cousin lives with us to travel back and forth to work.

Since going through all this infertility treatments I'm wondering if all these additional people in my house are causing me stress. Don't get me wrong I love being able to help people out and I really don't feel any extra stress but is it really hurting me?

So two weeks ago I had my 2nd IUI done. Ever since 2 days past I was cramping really bad, getting pelvic pain and my ovaries were hurting. Since then it's calmed down a bit but was wondering if it's all in my head or is this really happening. I go in tomorrow (Saturday) for my beta (bloodwork) to see if I'm knocked up or not. I've been cheating and doing home pregnancy tests and they've all been negative. As much as I don't want to be debbie downer but it doesn't look like this cycle worked :( I've been such an emotional wreck lately. On Wednesday we went and seen my RE to see if this cycle didn't work what our next steps would be. I told her obviously the clomid isn't working so we need to try something else out. She gave us 3 options to choose from and here's what we decided. Were going to do 2 more cycles of IUI and with that were going to do 100mg clomid CD 3-7, starting CD8 I'm going to do gonal-f injections for 5 days. Then I go in for my usual CD13 ultrasound and if everything looks good I will then do my trigger shot of ovidrel and have IUI 36 hours later. So I will be on 3 different hormone medications and I am warning you people, don't make me mad these next few months. I'm sure it won't be pretty. This is the next step before we might have to do IVF. I go in next Thursday to do my injection class training and if my period shows up next week then the next cycle begins. I got really upset and emotional during my doctor's visit and she suggested I talk to the in-house counselor. I'm still debating on that!

So if you are the praying type please pray my blood work goes good tomorrow and it is positive and please pray for my sanity and hopefully I won't be an emotional wreck tomorrow. It's a big weekend and I have to keep it all together. Hope everyone has a great Easter!

Friday, March 30, 2012

The dreaded two week wait...

This dreaded two week wait sucks...
I had my IUI on Monday March 26th. She had a hard time at first but everything went great.
I took the day off work and came home and made myself do bed rest. I laid in bed read the first book of Hunger games and took a nap and watched tv. It was great.
I've been doing everything in my power to not stress about everything. Taking it easy at work and at home.
On Tuesday the day after my IUI my ovaries were hurting a little bit.
On Wednesday I starting getting cramping in my stomach like period cramps but more like pressure. The cramping hasn't stopped, hoping that's a good sign. I talked to the nurse at the doctor's office today and told her about it and I told her not sure if it was because of the trigger shot I did or if it's from the IUI or if it's a good sign but I'm trying not to look to much into it.
I go in tomorrow for my progesterone level to make sure I ovulated.

Thursday the 29th we celebrated Kevin's birthday. He turned the big 31 :)
I went after work and bought some steaks, potatoes and rolls. I also bought a Dairy Queen ice cream cake and made it home before him and threw it in the freezer. We had dinner and after dinner surprised him with the cake, it was great. It was a great day for him and I'm glad I can be a part of it with him.
Going through all this infertility problems it's nice to know my husband is there for me and supports me in every way possible and is there when I need a shoulder to cry on. And lately it's been a lot. All these medicines I'm on is making me very hormonal and emotional and cry for no reason.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

This is our month...

I went Wednesday for my cd13 ultrasound and it showed I had 2 follicles 1 on each.side measuring at 10mm each. Here we go again or so I thought. Same thing happened last month. I was getting ready to brace myself and I asked the ultrasound tech what she thought. She said it looked better than last month so I was a little relieved. The nurse called me later that day and said to come in Friday for another ultrasound to see if they are growing. On Friday morning I went to my appt and things are going my way, the follicle on my left grew to 16. Are you kidding me? Their supposed to grow 2mm a day but that's more than that if they were 10 on Wednesday and now 16. So I had to make another appt on Saturday and if they grew to 18 then I will have iui on Monday. So I went in this morning and can you believe it, it grew to 18.5...woo hoo! I gave never been so happy. Kevin came with me this morning and when she told me that I gave him 2 thumbs up haha. She said do my trigger shot of ovidrel Saturday night and come in Monday morning for iui.

I've been doing tons of research these past few months and I found some interesting articles on eating pineapple starting the day of your iui. You cut the pineapple in 5 pieces and eat only the core, not the meat. Too much meat of the pineapple can make you have a miscarriage. The core of the pineapple helps with implantation. Its the bromelain in the pineapple. So it won't hurry to try it. I'll eat 5 pieces for 5 days starting Monday. You can also do this for ivf. So I will be taking it easy these next few days. Monday after my iui my plan is to lay in bed and watch TV and movies all day :)

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

If all goes well....

then I will be having my 2nd IUI next weekend...
yesterday's appt went great. They increased my clomid to 100mg, so thankful!
I go in on the 21st for my cd13 ultrasound to check follicles.
I am praying, praying, praying this is our month.

This weekend we had the house to ourselves. We have 3 extra ppl staying with us so the house gets a little crowded. My dad lives with us full time, his friend has been staying with us on and off and during the week Kevin's cousin stays with us to go to work. But this past weekend it was just Kevin and I and we both needed that. We went out to dinner Friday night, Saturday night we went to Dave and Buster's with the fam to play games and then we went out to dinner again. Sunday it was actually 60 degrees and he went riding on the motorcycle while I stayed back and did some paint touch ups around the house. I did a little spring cleaning, it felt great.

I am a huge fan of pinterest (if your on there let me know and I'll look you up) and I found this on there and wanted to share it. I want to get this printed and framed and put in my bedroom :)

Friday, March 9, 2012

Finally....

I have never been so relieved in my life. My period finally started this morning. I called right away and made a doctor's appt for my cycle day 3 and unfortunately they are closed on Sunday so I had to schedule it for Monday morning. I am hoping they increase my clomid this time too.

I have one week left of school and this also makes me happy. This weekend I will be finishing final projects and studying for my accounting exam. Accounting is so hard and I can't wait for this class to be over with. I will have to take Accounting II but I am going to wait a while for that. Starting next semester I am taking online classes and there are a few pros and cons about online.
Pros-
I only take 1 class for 6 weeks then my second class for the next 6 weeks.
I won't have to drive to campus anymore.

Cons-
I have to get online everyday and put in my input under the discussions board.
And its only 6 wks compared to 10 wks on campus.

I really need a break I can't wait for next Wednesday to come :)

Have a great weekend! I know I will, I'm doing fun stuff this wknd can't wait to share how that goes and my appt on Monday!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Update....

I went to the doctor and had a blood test and it was negative. They gave me Provera to take for 5 days and that should help jump start my period. I took my last pill on Saturday which was exactly 2 weeks late. Now I'm just waiting for my period to start. Whether your trying to conceive or waiting for your period, there's always the waiting game...ugh!

I have one week left of school and I'm dieing over here. Finals, tests, projects, presentations and studying. I cannot wait for school to be over with. I will have a week and a half of vacation then back to school. Thankfully next semester I am taking online classes so we'll see how that goes!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Lost and confused....

I am so lost and confused
I was expecting to start my period last week and now I am 8 days late. I tested twice and both negative. I don't know what do. I have no symptoms of my period bit site boobs and no symptoms of pregnancy. If I dint start my period within the next few days I'm going to have to go in for a blood test to see whats going on. I hate this feeling. I gave been under a lot of stress lately so not sure if that's it or not. Ugh...what to do.

I know I need to stop stressing about it but I can't it's so hard.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Just trucking along....

This tww thing is getting on my nerves. Even though nothing happened this month I'm still waiting for the tww to be over so I can start on my next cycle. I normally don't like to share about my cycles and such but this is such an exciting time in our lives that I want to document everything I can. I hope to one day print all these out and share with our little one. I want them to know how much they are loved and what we went through to be able to conceive them.

I have 3 more weeks of school and I can't wait for it to be over and have my 2 weeks of downtime. I really need it. It's been chaotic in my house lately and really need that time to myself. I've been trying to excercise regularly but it's hard with doing homework all the time and trying to take care of the house.

Hope everyone has a great weekend :)

Monday, February 6, 2012

More road bumps...

When they say that life gives you plenty of hurdles, boy were they right.
Life is not perfect and I am one example of that
Being on clomid 50mg for 3 mths I figured I would get pregnant, well apparently the clomid isn't working as I didn't ovulate this month...
I went in last Friday and they said my follicles were less than 8 and I knew I didn't ovulate. I took my ovulation predictor kits and I should have started testing positive starting Saturday but Saturday came and it was negative. Then Sunday came and it was negative again so I knew this month it wasn't going to happen. This happened to me about 6 mths ago so not everyone ovulates every month. I went back to the doctor this morning for another ultrasound to see if they grew and they were less than 10 so it was confirmed I didn't ouvlate. The nurse called to give me the great news (insert sarcastic voice here) and tell me the doctor wanted me to come in 3 days for another ultrasound just to be sure but my awesome insurance (another sarcastic voice) doesn't pay for my ultrasounds I have to pay out of pocket and at $200 a pop that would be my third in a week so $600 I told her it wasn't necessary and I would cancel this cycle. So I have to wait for my period to start so I can start all over again. I'm waiting to hear back from my insurance as I am not sure if they pay for ultrasounds but I heard if my doctor labels it infertility then the insurance won't pay until I reach my deductible which is $500. Oy vey!

I am so glad I am documenting every single part of my journey good or bad. I wasn't going to but I want my future baby to know what I went through to conceive them and how much they will truly be loved by their parents. I am starting a little story about how Kevin and I met and the bumps we went through to get where we are today in our relationship. In May we will be married 11 years and the end of February we started dating 13 years ago. This is obviously the longest relationship I have ever had and couldn't be happier.

On a positive note we went to church yesterday for the first time in a long time and it felt great. As soon as I walked to my seat it felt good to be their again and I got a little emotional. We were standing up and singing and tears were just rolling down my face. I don't know why I was getting so emotional but it was happy tears. The message of the day was Grace (my church) was a healing place. And man by the end of it I knew that we went yesterday for a reason. I've been up and down in my struggles and needing that message to know that I needed healing and church was the right place to be. I even brought my dad with me for the first time and he loved it. He said he will definitely go back.

Friday, February 3, 2012

ugh...

So went in for my ultrasound this morning to see how my follicles were growing and the ultrasound tech told me that I had a few but they were less than 8. I am so confused. last cycle I had 2 at 16 and the month prior I had 3 bigger than 16 so why this month they were less than 8, I dont understand. So as usual as soon as I walked out the door I bawled my eyes out and called my husband. He of course calmed me down and told me to wait for the nurse to call to explain further. So I waited for her phone call and she called to tell me after talking to the doctor they want me to come back on Monday which will be cd16 for me. I always ovulate cd14 but nurse said don't worry. So if I go back Monday and they didn't grow then they were canceling this month :( so sad. So praying that they grow by Monday and we can do IUI.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

So much on my mind

I've had a lot on my mind lately....

I'm currently going to school for business management but working for my current company I've decided I don't want to work in an office environment anymore, I want to get out there and help people and be moving non stop and constantly be busy. So after some careful consideration I've decided to change my major. I'm going tomorrow to talk to a counselor about this program I'm interested in. There's a few stipilations though. 1. you need a 3.6 gpa to get into program. ok I have a 3.65 now so if I hold strong and keep at it I'm sure I'll do fine. 2. there's a 2-3 yr waiting list to get into this program. I think I can handle that since I have to take pre-requisites and it might take me that long to finish those. And I will be completely changing careers from business to medical. Then there's that thought in the back of my head saying, your 30 you still have 3-4 yrs of school left by the time your done say you'll be 35. Is that to old to start a new career? Plus I'm trying to get pregnant so if I do get pregnant that might hold me back a while. But I'm not going to stop until I get the career I want!

I've also decided to quit my photography business. My heart is not into it anymore. I used to love doing it and going on photoshoots but now it just seems to take up all my extra time. So therefore I will be selling most of my stuff that I have left and maybe my fancy camera and getting something cheaper. I'm not sure yet. I won't need a fancy camera for just hobby stuff and if I have kids one day I will need something nice for that. Plus during the summer my hubby and I enjoy riding motorycles together and I love to spend all my free time with him. I don't want to spend my free time after work behind the computer for hours on end and then kicking myself in the butt for not spending time with him. My philosophy is you never know what's going to happen tomorrow and I don't want to regret anything. This was a hard decision for me.

Tomorrow is my ultrasound appt to check my follicles and hoping to do my 2nd IUI this weekend! Praying tmrw goes well :)

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Living life one day at a time

I've had some few emotional days lately.
Wondering why this is happening to me, what did I deserve to not be able to conceive a child for my husband. Is it because were selfish and we've gone this long without kids so punish us...so many thoughts go through my head and I know I can't think negative I know that but I still do. Its hard not to. I sit there and think about my feelings and don't think how this is affecting my husband. He gets upset with me and tells me that the one thing I want so badly he can't give me. I never realized it hurt him just as much as it hurts me. I know I'm the one going to the doctor's offices and getting the results but we are a pair and what affects me affects him as well.

I just got off clomid for 5 days. I take it at night now so I sleep off the side effects. I go in on Friday for my ultrasound to check my follicles and hoping to do my 2nd IUI this weekend or early next week. And praying like never before that this is it...

I received a phone call out of the blue on Sunday. It was from a friend from high school that we talked over the years on Facebook but she ended up closing her account and I lost her number and couldn't get a hold of her. But then I ended up closing my Facebook account and another friend was worried about me so contacted her to find out if she heard from me. So she called me to see how I was doing. She knows I have been ttc for some time now and wanted to check in on me. I thought this was the nicest thing anyone has ever done. Not very often does someone call you to see how you were doing. Anyways, we talked for 45 mins and talked about her struggling ttc and getting pregnant twice and losing the babies to trying again and the struggles I've been going through. Its nice to talk to someone who is going through the same thing as you. Its hard to talk to someone who has no idea what it's like to struggle to get pregnant and have to explain all the different procedures and medications your doing or on. And I'm an emotional person anyways so to talk about this is difficult for me. I don't always share my feelings but no one besides my husband has no idea how bad I just want to become a mother and I can't. Being around children is difficult for me knowing I'm having such a hard time. Going to baby showers is even more difficult. I love all my nieces and nephews like you will never believe but I envy my sister, brother and sister in laws for being able to have children so easily. And they have no idea the struggles I've been through.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Words that hurt...

Not so good news...

Well I went in for my blood test yesterday and received a call that it was negative. I was so heartbroken and I was sitting in a restaurant with my nephew and good thing because I almost broke down. I feel like I have done everything I possible could and still no positive pregnancy test. I feel like this is all my fault and wonder what else could be wrong. The doctors say that everything is fine but if we are not getting pregnant than what. I am so mad and upset and wish I could just snap my fingers and get pregnant. Kevin keeps telling me its out of my control and there's nothing I can do and stop stressing about it. I'm glad that he gets happy and sad with me and understands what I'm going through. He was really bummed when I told him the news. So now I'm just waiting for my period to start so we can start a new cycle of hormones, mood swings, ultrasounds, blood work and being poked and prodded :)

If anyone is interested I also bought Vitex and Maca Root and going to start taking these. Vitex is a vitamin, does not contain hormones and to promote fertility. And of course there are side effects so I'll have to keep an eye on it. Maca Root is a vitamin as well and does not contain hormones. It helps with infertility and comes from the root of a turnip grown in Ecuador and Peru. It also helps men with their sperm count and mobility. So women if your men have problems have them try this vitamin. They say men should take 1,500-3,000 mg a day. Here's more info on it: http://www.livestrong.com/article/350433-benefits-of-maca-root-on-fertility/. I'm so excited to start trying both of these and have Kevin start taking maca root. You never know this may be what we've been missing :)

Have a great weekend!

Sunday, January 15, 2012

here we go again...

Here I am again in the dreaded 2 week wait. I went to the doctor on Saturday to check my progesterone levels and again they are above 20. And that's a good thing. If they were less than 20 then I would have to be on medication. So I go back next Friday to to my beta blogs test. This month my symptoms haven't been that bad. I've had mood swings really. Crying for no reason just get upset. I took my clomid at night this month to hopefully sleep off the symptoms and so far so good. This month I took clomid cycle days 5-9 and had my ultrasounds last Saturday and did my trigger shot of ovidrel on Sunday night. Praying tons that this is my month and I feel positive and know it will be.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Speed Bumps

Life wouldn't be life if there weren't any speed bumps
My Christmas was great. Spent christmas morning at my sister in laws opening presents and then came home so family could enjoy the holidays at our house.
I was supposed to go in for my beta blood test 2 days after christmas. On Christmas day I wasn't feeling that great and had a feeling something was wrong. I woke up and went shopping the day after Christmas and knew something was wrong, went to the bathroom and the dreaded period showed up. I was so bummed. So I can officially say our first IUI had failed. But I didn't dread over it, I grieved a little bit but needed to move on.

Fast forward to this month and we decided to move forward with trying it again.
I went in on CD3 for ultrasound to make sure I was ok to take clomid again this month and I was so I started that CD5. I went in for another ultrasound on CD13 which was this past weekend and I have 2 follicles on each side measuring at 16mm and they grow about 2 mm a day. I took my trigger shot of Ovidrel Sunday night and we aren't going to do IUI this month. Were just going to do timed intercourse and see how that works. If for whatever reason we have to do this again next month were going to try IUI again but I have a feeling this is my month! I also started doing ovulation predictor kits again and today I got that I was ovulating so this is it...today's the day! I go in this Saturday for my progesterone blood work to make sure I ovulated. Praying that I get high numbers and that I ovulated.

I also start school this week so at least I will have something to keep my mind occupied.

I will post more when I go on Saturday until then have a great week :)