Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Everything went...

Great yesterday.
They did an ultrasound before my IUI and I had 4 follicles at 20, 18, 15 and 13. Whew! The nurse doing my ultrasound asked if I signed a multiples agreement haha. Pretty much I had to sign something stating I am ok if I get pregnant with multiples and won't terminate the pregnancy.

So we inserted 5 million sperm :) compared to the 3 million last month. And last month I only had 1 follicle and still managed to get pregnant. So I'm really excited to see what this month holds...and kind of nervous.

So I'm taking it easy. Yesterday I came home after my appt and layed on the couch and watched tv all day. It felt great.

So please say a few prayers for me that this month will work!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

3rd IUI and 5th month on clomid...

So I started my 5th month of clomid but 2nd month on 100mg. I took that cd 3-7 and starting cd 8 I started doing my gonal-f injections. I went in on cd 8 for an ultrasound and they said I had 4 follicles. 11, 10, 10 and 9.  So I went in for my cd10 ultrasound and my follicles were now 18, 16, 15 and 13 maybe. I never got the exact  numbers so not positive. After my appt yesterday (Saturday) I got the call that I can do my ovidrel trigger shot and have my IUI on Monday. I was in shock that it was happening so soon. I was only cd10 and then I would have my IUI on cd12. I was freaking out that it was to early. But I did my trigger shot last night at midnight because we had bowling. I took an ovulation kit and it tested positive that I was ovulating so I felt a little better. I had to re-arrange my days at work and take Monday and Tuesday off-I'm giving myself an extra day to relax so I'm not rushing around. So praying that last month with the chemical pregnancy that this month the little bean actually sticks around :) I am asking if everyone can please pray for me! Thank you!

Monday, April 16, 2012

March for Babies Walk....

I am asking for everyone's help please. I am walking in the March for Babies walk on April 29th and I'm not anywhere near my goal. I am trying to raise $100 but would love if I could get more than that. If you can please donate as much as you can to help premature babies.

Here is the link to my page:
http://www.marchforbabies.org/team/t1719768

Thank you all so much!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

You get your miracle then....

BAM it gets taken away.

I knew something was either wrong or going great these last few weeks. I had my IUI on March 26th. 2 days after my IUI I started cramping in my abdomen and getting pressure. I never had this with my first one so I knew something wasn't right. I went in for my beta blood test on Saturday April 7th and then went about my day. Like any other time I was waiting on that phone call and expecting to hear "sorry your test was negative". But I got that phone call earlier than I ever have before and the lady on the other line said "it was positive". I asked her to repeat herself. I have never heard a positive before. But let me take you back to first thing that morning. I have an obsession with peeing on a stick and I peed on one earlier that day and it was negative so that was kind of weird that she told me it was positive. Then hear comes the bad news. She said my beta number was low so they wanted me to come back on Monday for another beta. She said my number was 10. Between 0 and 5 is negative, between 5 and 10 is maybe, maybe not pregnant and anything over 25 is definitely pregnant. So I took it easy over the weekend and went back on Monday. This time my number only jumped to 11. I just had a gut feeling something wasn't right but yet I was still getting symptoms. Stomach was cramping, getting pressure in lower belly and had a pulling sensation next to belly button. So I went again on Wednesday and waited, waited, waited for that phone call. I had high hopes and was expecting to hear my number skyrocketed. But all good things must come to an end...my number dropped to 5.7....ugh, are you kidding me? They want me to come back on Saturday as the doctor wants it under 5 to make sure it's definitely negative but I told myself why go back to hear that dreaded "it's negative" again. Then I wake up this morning and guess what, my period started! Go figure!

Thankfully I have an appt at my doctor's office today to go over my injection training since this month I will be giving myself injections along with all the other medication I have to take. I will now be on clomid 100mg cd 3-7, gonal f cd 8-12 then give myself ovidrel trigger shot 36 hours before IUI then we do IUI.

I told Kevin at least we know we can pregnant but something happened and it just didn't take. In technical terms they call this a chemical pregnancy, which is a step below a miscarry. We just both feel like God gave us what we wanted then at the last minute took it away from us. He knows how bad we want this. I am feeling pretty positive about this next cycle though. If it worked last month I know it will work this month and it will stick around.

So here's to a new month of meds and ultrasounds and maxing out our credit cards to pay for everything!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Life is hectic...

Life has been hectic around the Young household lately.
My dad moved in last September for details we won't get into.
A buddy of his went through a terrible accident with his wife and his wife passed away so ever since then he's been working on and off and hasn't had a decent place to stay. Usually he sleeps in his van or if he has money he gets a hotel room for the night. After a few times meeting him and not knowing all of this Kevin and I decided he can move in with us and we can provide a roof over his head and food in his belly until he gets back on his feet. He's a contractor so he's been doing stuff around the house for us which has been awesome. He's fixed some outlets for us, he added a 2nd bedroom in our basement and we painted the whole basement so he helped out with that. I come home from work to a clean house, so that part is good.
Recently my sister her lease ended on her house and they had nowhere to go so just last weekend my sister, her boyfriend and 3 yr old nephew moved in with us...whew!
Have you caught on yet? I feel like my life is a soap opera.
And during the week my husband's cousin lives with us to travel back and forth to work.

Since going through all this infertility treatments I'm wondering if all these additional people in my house are causing me stress. Don't get me wrong I love being able to help people out and I really don't feel any extra stress but is it really hurting me?

So two weeks ago I had my 2nd IUI done. Ever since 2 days past I was cramping really bad, getting pelvic pain and my ovaries were hurting. Since then it's calmed down a bit but was wondering if it's all in my head or is this really happening. I go in tomorrow (Saturday) for my beta (bloodwork) to see if I'm knocked up or not. I've been cheating and doing home pregnancy tests and they've all been negative. As much as I don't want to be debbie downer but it doesn't look like this cycle worked :( I've been such an emotional wreck lately. On Wednesday we went and seen my RE to see if this cycle didn't work what our next steps would be. I told her obviously the clomid isn't working so we need to try something else out. She gave us 3 options to choose from and here's what we decided. Were going to do 2 more cycles of IUI and with that were going to do 100mg clomid CD 3-7, starting CD8 I'm going to do gonal-f injections for 5 days. Then I go in for my usual CD13 ultrasound and if everything looks good I will then do my trigger shot of ovidrel and have IUI 36 hours later. So I will be on 3 different hormone medications and I am warning you people, don't make me mad these next few months. I'm sure it won't be pretty. This is the next step before we might have to do IVF. I go in next Thursday to do my injection class training and if my period shows up next week then the next cycle begins. I got really upset and emotional during my doctor's visit and she suggested I talk to the in-house counselor. I'm still debating on that!

So if you are the praying type please pray my blood work goes good tomorrow and it is positive and please pray for my sanity and hopefully I won't be an emotional wreck tomorrow. It's a big weekend and I have to keep it all together. Hope everyone has a great Easter!